Thank you for your kind and accepting words. What a beautiful thing to say. You are onto it, I am going to do my best to let go and just be, be a good person and try my best to leave a loving impression on humanity. I will honor what I believe and stop over-thinking things. I have noticed that when I over-think, it leads to confusion and being overwhelmed by everything. I’m going to stop trying to logic my relationship with God and let it be a natural process. Thank you for your response, it’s much appreciated!

Thank you Anita I will definitely be taking that advice to heart. Have a blessed week.

Thank you Anita, youre right, all I can do is all I can do and I make the most of the time I spend with my son. When he is with me its just about us and enjoying our time together.
Thank you for the different perspective.
I have been given a lot of good advice on this journey but I never looked at it the way you said it.
To be careful who I give all my love to. Thats a big lesson for me. A huge lesson. I just thought once im in it were working it out til death do us part but you cant solely depend on others for happiness. I depended on her for that and thats where I went wrong. With her I didnt have much of a backbone, I was passive a lot and allowed her to make me believe it was always me who did something wrong. That there was something wrong with me but I no longer see it that way.
I was willing to have her back but the truth is I would not trust her. In reality I didnt fully trust her before it happened because of similar behavior she showed in the past with other people. But I forgave her and thought it could work.
I got used to the kind of “love” I had with her because I never knew any other kind. She was my first relationship. We were so young when we met and jumped into things quick.
I have learned so much though. As painful as it has been and can still be, I know more now of what I want from a relationship and to not make my world revolve around anyone completely. But to find someone who can compliment me and for me to do the same for them. But not in a way where we are.holding onto eachother to survive.
I do say love you all in a pure sense of just sending my good intentions out to anyone who wants to receive it. But youre right. I cant just give my love to anyone and the next time I do fall in love it will be different.
That person will cherish me for everything I am and everything I am not. They are out there somewhere.
Im just going to live and pursue my passions and live with good intentions. Thank you for your helpful words.

Hmm, I think she did, but in retrospect it’s hard to say what she felt for me. She was in a bad situation at the beginning, she wanted out of a bad family situation, I took her out and then it became one thing after the other. I think she did care for me, but I think I wasn’t what she wanted me to be. She had a lot of insecurities and needed a lot of validation that I don’t think I was able to constantly give her. And so she took it as me not loving her how I was supposed to. I asked her why she stayed with me so long at the end, she said it was convenient for her. I certainly have my flaws and take responsibility for our issues. But I don’t think anything could justify what she did to me. I don’t believe I lead her to being that way, I could have loved anyone the same way, I’m capable of putting my heart into a relationship fully. And I did. I loved her unconditionally. But her expectations perhaps were not realistic, and even then I went above and beyond in many ways.