Hi Anja!
I know you’ve posted this a while ago, however I am now going through the exact same thing you wrote about. Reading your post was exactly like if they were my words. If you don’t mind, I would love to know how it turned out for you and if you are still having these thoughts. These thoughts suddenly came to me last night and I haven’t been able to sleep and I’ve been reading through forums like this one but so far your post was the only was that made me feel okay and know deep down that everything is fine with me. I am also in a relationship with my boyfriend for 1,5 now and we’ve also been doing lost distance for the past 4 months. Plus, I am also about to get my period. If it’s better we can talk about this somewhere else but this public site, just let me know. Thanks in advance!!