I really appreciate the great response for this problem that i feel has no end. I always put positive thoughts into my head about my so but it seems like the negative seems to overpower it all. What i’m basically struggling with is being able to accept that past and know that i’ve gotten over it all. I feel like i’m making it all about myself and my ego is just overpowering all this negative feeling. It literally sits in my mind from the moment i wake up till i go to sleep. The negative situations that she was in in the past 7 years with other men. I know we’ve changed but i have trouble keeping the mind positive. Its sad, we can go see each other for a few days and then i will just absolutely go into the worst negative mindset about her and i put her down with very very hurtful words. I hate what i’ve become from all this unimportant stuff.