Just thought I’d share. I had my tooth out today. Went to the shop for painkillers and I saw the pupil that left in summer. He did say hello. I was able to talk to him. The piece that was missing was renewed in me. I am so pleased to have seen him. To know he’s ok and is enjoying college. He said hello to me

The losses have been varied the first loss I remember was aunt who died overseas in Canada, then my nana, gran. Various other family members. I lost my rabbit when I was 13 killed by two dogs, my cousin was murdered by her dad. Then I lost my best friend he died in a accident nearly ten years ago. Then I lost my tortoise George.

I’ve had a house that I’ve had to fight for. Relationship I had to walk away from. Jobs I had to fight in and for.

My husband and my little girl are the positives. My family parents and brother are great. Dad I am still worried about which is normal.

As you can I’ve had a variety of experiences. So this recent feeling is odd. Hope this makes sense. I am coming up to ten years of the loss of my best friend but I firmly see the blessing in the time we had together. All out there now x

Home is great and I adore being a mum and being a wife. The work thing is feeling empty! and driving me crazy

Anita sorry it’s been a while. I am far easier on other people. I always look for the positive in other people, as the people I deal with on a day to day basis bring a lot of stuff with them. I look at the barriers to learning, life and hopefully support them in their journey to connect and learn. For some they leave us as more rounded individuals and with qualifications they need to.

As for me I have a good family, however my mum is very critical everything from my hair, weight and anything else she see as me doing wrong. Over the years I have believed her now I’m more rounded as a person and see what my gut tells me. However when I’m very tired my mums voice / critic is harder to silence.

My mum means we’ll just she hasn’t the filter of compassion at times. I on the other hand are a deeply sensitive soul who attracts people who need to talk. I’m a good active listener and to be honest I’ve always been involved in caring roles.

I do love being here though as I feel as though I can connect and that’s been a while.

My expectations of others are at work I look for the best in people. I encourage to be the best they can be. As for me I’m hard on myself I know that this is a result of a highly protective family, who had high expectations. In essence there isn’t anything wrong it that but it means when you fail it’s seen as failure rather then an experience to learn from.

i do care a lot about what others think of me, and over the years have been working on how I see myself. As I say my life experience I use to teach others, as I use the negative experiences to bring a solution.

thank you for helping me reflect.

Remember where’s there’s tea theirs hope

I’ve always found it strange how things can be a blessing and a curse. I’ve had a number of bad experiences that I use a teaching point I guess. I often see the positive in the negative. Not always when in the midst of a storm