Hi anita and regi,
Thank you both so much for your replies! It has been a while since the incident, and I am on the path to recovery. Meditation has helped me get through this a LOT and I realize that making mistakes is simply part of the journey. Holding onto these emotions will hold me back, so all I can do right now is take action, and for that I have decided to give up alcohol. Thank you both for your wisdom as I was reading your responses within the past week and they were really soothing.