The one thing I did not do in my current situation is be brave and true to myself the first time
I said to myself “really? what am I doing here. I want to be home in my own bed with my own coffee.”
I thought I had control of the odd situation from my own perspective, but the seeds of the truth were
taking root in my mind. It is/was a long distance relationship/?friendship? now. I waited too long to
speak up. An old pattern. So we were derailed by someone who is not a nice person but portrays herself as one. Maybe we could have worked it out. Chances not.But I don’t want this to feel pain and I confuse myself by telling myself that I just feel left out of family gatherings. I am still welcome in all friend gatherings.My friends keep redirecting me back to valuing myself and to see my self in the
amazing valuable way they see me. I want to stop being stuck here.