Hi Nikki,

I’m sorry to hear that you feel so alone.  I’ve felt this way most of my life.  Not to make this about me, here is what I learned from my life experiences.  Maybe some of these will resonate with you 🙂

1) you have to start feeling comfortable with yourself and actually enjoy your own company (takes a lot of introspection, trust me)

2) ask yourself why you attract or are attracted to indifferent folks, such as your boyfriend who pretends you’re not there.  is it them or are you being too needy?  this is not a judgment just putting it all out there.  Have you told your bf how you feel and that you would like him to be more attentive to you?

3) what do you enjoy doing?  do you have any hobbies?

4) just because we have people around does not mean that they “get” us and we are not alone.  I felt alone with my ex-husband the last 2yrs of our marriage.  Like you mentioned above, we just shared a bed.

5) exercise helps a lot!  it boosts your mood due to increasing endorphins and it might make you more interested in meeting new and different people.  try to go outside your comfort zone.

6) get a dog.  they are lifesavers 🙂

7) the hardest thing I’ve realized in my life journey is that the only one that can change and/or make things better is you.  others don’t change for us.  they do ONLY when they are ready and willing to do so.  don’t waste your time with people that make you unhappy.

I hope this helps, Nikki!  Hope you feel better soon

Roxanne