Sorry, one more thing, don’t feel that your being rude or guilty for not answering him, your not. Stop being concerned about his feelings. He wasn’t concerned about yours when he cheated on you. I would recommend a website called baggage reclaim. That is where I gained a lot of knowledge about relationships. And realized learned so much about what’s healthy and not healthy in relationships. Please educate yourself so you can learn, so you won’t have to learn from making mistakes but can learn from the mistakes that others have made.

Never give a cheater or a liar a second chance. He will do it again. Cheaters and liars do not change. This is a massive red flag that you must not ignore. You will find someone who will not cheat or lie to you and that you will be close with again. You miss the good times of course, but don’t forget that he’s not really good relationship material he’s already proved that. You will have good times with someone else, just don’t go back to him. He will only hurt you again, I don’t care how sorry he says he is. They all say they’re sorry, it equal that they’ve changed. You must accept that reality and don’t make the mistake in thinking that cheaters and liars change. I know you want validation from him that he still wants you, cause you did like somethings about him. It’s not your fault he cheated, it has nothing to do with you, cheaters cheat because of their own issues. If he’s really sorry for what he did, that’s great, but here’s the thing, it doesn’t matter if he’s sorry or not, it doesn’t change or erase what he did or is capable of doing again. All it means it that they are testing the waters, putting some bait on the hook, to see if you’ll bite and they can pull you back in. Anyone that goes back to a cheater is going to get hurt again. You will not be an exception to that rule. They do not change. Don’t do it. Don’t fall for it cause you are going to get hurt again. You can and will find someone who will treat you way better. He’s in your past for a reason, do not forget those reasons. Keep moving forward. Keep doing what is best for you.