Im starting to see that ive been fighting the inevitable.. i just feel so horrible knowing he lied to me the whole time we were together he lied to me. He still does when he sent that message saying he loves me more then anything and misses me. Now i have to start my whole life all over looking for a job , to moving on my own to figuring how to make myself happy other then being happy with him. And right now im so lost i dont know where to start. I was happy with him and him leaving that was a big chunck of my happiness gone.