If you’ve found something you love and you’re somewhere you’re unhappy, close your eyes, hold your breath and take the plunge. Scary as it is, if this is what will make you happy, you will find a way to make it work. When I moved in with my boyfriend, I was the only one working, so he moved to my town [a place I hate] and I remember figuring everything out and having a panic attack because it was so uncertain. My mom used her time tested wisdom ‘if you have any doubt you don’t really want to do it’. That snapped me back to reality, I wanted to move in with him in the apartment [which I love] I was scared of the unknown. It’s been over a year, while I don’t have much, I have enough.

Regarding your beau, ignore him. When I was 20 I was in a ‘relationship’ with a guy who used and abused me mentally. Despite the way he treated me I kept coming back hoping he would accept me. I don’t know your situation, but when we broke up I wanted him back in my life and I couldn’t imagine a life where we weren’t even friends. 5 years later I’m shocked how much time I spent on him. Maybe you two just drifted apart, maybe he cheated, whatever happened, look at it as a blessing, you are free to find your passion, to figure out who you are and what you want. If you were with him, you will probably take one step forward and two steps back so you’re both on the same page.