Hi Anita,

I am open to exploring  on here, just not sure where to start.

Hi Anita,

Thank you for getting back to me. It has been helpful to talk to you so far.

When reflecting on past experiences with anxiety, my first therapist taught me a bit about scanning my body and making corrections where needed. For example, lowering my shoulders when stressed and even smiling slightly to trick my brain into thinking I was happy and relaxed.

Exercise has also been helpful for me in the past. I used to workout regularly which helped quite a bit, but did not resolve the issues completely.

I have tried meditation, but not for long enough. I find that in the beginning, sitting with my thoughts seems to make me more stressed, so I go into a state of avoidance. Truthfully, I have found in recent years that I feel a lot of resistance in my body as I have tried to overcome the issue we are currently discussing. I think that may be one of the reasons that I still find myself in this space.

Hi Anita,

I thought about it a little more and I realize the new relashionship felt threatening to me because it was the real deal. I’ve always been kind of a day dreamer and I would day dream about lovers, but it was always just fun and not real. But this person is the first person where it was a real, stable relashionship. And I guess I felt that that went against the person I saw myself as, which is independent. When I was single, I thought of all the possibilities. But when this person came around, it kinda stifled that. I hope that makes sense. The problem is, is that I wouldn’t trade this person for the world. So I am stuck and confused.