oh okay, i am just so confused. i would never hurt jessi the way i did the first time. i want him back so much. it is hurting me so much inside. his friends are still friends with me, which makes like no sense, but it is whatever. i just don’t know what to do. i love him, i want him, it is no one else, and even the new guy, knows i am not ready. the new guy gave me a hug today, and it didn’t feel like when jessi gave me a hug. i just am so lost.

natalee

i am 16, and i dated this guy this year from february till june. he was amazing, and nothing wrong about him. i would not change a thing about him. he was so sweet, kind, talkative, very funny, helpful, amazing, and most of all, a good boyfriend. his friends were my friends. me and his friends would play xbox everyday together. we would see each other at school, and everything. it was perfect. until the middle of may, me and my old crush became really good friends. i was tempted to do stuff, but he kept flirting and sending pictures. i finally got convinced by his threats and stupid words, and i sent a picture that wasn´t the best, it wasn’t a full on nude, it was just a little bit. the last day of school, the night after, my mom found out and made me tell my boyfriend. he came over, i told him, he hugged me and was pretty mad, and he came back the next day, and broke up with me. then, 6 days later, he came back and we got back together. we was together for 3 weeks, and he dumped me again. he said he could not live with the fact that i cheated. it hurt me knowing he was hurt. he never cries, but when he left the first time, he was wiping tears from his eyes as he was leaving. he was so hurt, but he loved me so much. it made me cry every night because of my stupid decision. we broke up for the final time on the night of june 25th, and every day since then, i have thought about him. my school started monday, and i have seen him everyday at breakfast sitting with his friends, and i remember sitting there last school year. it brought back memories, but oh well. now there was this kid in my gym class. and in may, we became very good friends. he developed a major crush on me. like it was noticeable, and he told me. he fell in love with me, and he is very cute, and very sweet, but i had a boyfriend. so i just kept our friendship, maybe i flirted a little back, but yeah. now, i am started to have feelings for the new guy. we was sitting together at breakfast today, and my ex passed us and he looked at me in a way he knew i would hurt, he did that several times. i still want to be with my ex, what should i do ?