As a fellow artist I understand not perfecting something and how it makes us feel; almost as if we’ve failed; but from the way you explain the situation I have to agree it sounds like you wanted to “dictate” rather than collaborate. If there was a problem with the guy who was filming, then that should have been nipped in the bud, from day 1. I don’t necessarily feel like you couldn’t trust him; obviously you had some trust in him when you asked him to film it? Art causes us to take a step back and look at the problem to figure out what we can do differently. This is a great time to evaluate what happened, make some changes and start over. Even if you created it and you documented it; if you aren’t “really there” to make sure it’s done the way you want it or you aren’t expressing your vision completely, the others won’t know what you want.

Everything is a learning experience and you can’t expect to have something perfect when you (or them) are doing it for the first time. It takes practice. Even though he told you that he could be trusted to film it; it seems like there was a problem in his ability to do that (he could have actually been very nervous)

Now, networking with contacts is where you should start. Reach out to other filmmakers, other writers or other people in the business that can refer you to others. All it takes is to reach out on a social network or a local event and say, “hey – I have an idea, I wrote a piece and I want to express it through a film; Do you know where I can start?” There’s always other film competitions and you can use what happened previously to make the experience better.