It’s brutal. In my situation I’m so clear that it’s chasing ghosts. Trying to get vaildation someone who I have grafted my early trauma onto, despite my wanting to leave the relationship because of the constant fighting.
The truth is that the begging stage for me is me begging me to turn towards myself. To give myself the love that I am seeking from someone who can no longer or couldn’t give it. I sincerely wish you well. It’s very hard to go through this, because abandonment is not logical.
Sending love.