This is will be last post here clarify some things and prevent speculations –
@kornfield: I am hurt. I meant well and felt bad by what you wrote. I realized its time to move on from this place. I do feel disappointed that I wasnt of much help here. I am much grateful to the people who have taken the time to help me and be compassionate.
@snails: Thanks a lot for understanding and all the best to you too. I am sorry about what happened.
Regards,
Moon