Thank you guys for the responses! Yes, I know I can’t change him. Funny thing is, I would tell him he shouldn’t change for me; we’re not compatible. Period. But he said he would change for me, and then would be frustrated/angry at me for not seeing the “change.” It was a…peculiar situation I suppose. Yes, I have deleted most contact with him; which was surprisingly scary for me to do. But, like I said, when I had contact with him, we would just end up arguing and I would waste my time.
I am actually quite busy- I think that’s why I miss him. In my nth year of college, looking for a job, working part time, volunteering, and studying constantly; I feel I don’t really get a break. “Bob” used to be my break. He was what made me take a second, step away from the chaos of my life, and talk about fun things; little things; gossip; news. We may have had fundamental differences, but at one point in time, he was someone I did enjoy talking to.
Right now I have a couple great friends who have been really supportive. I still find myself wanting to be in a relationship with someone- with “Bob” I suppose. I become a bit sadden when I see that my 2 great friends are also in great relationships with their long-term partners. It makes me feel lonely. And like you said Banu, I think I do glorify the good moments in our relationship. At times I feel like being with him is better than being “alone.” But it really wasn’t. I suppose I just need some time and patience. I can’t wait to read your article Banu 🙂 Thanks again for your responses!