Hello I am new here so thought I would write my first post in response to your post.
I have been taking medication for mild depression and anxiety for almost one year now. The medication seems to help me but I can still feel the down days.
For me the worst thing is feeling worthless. Then the guilt of feeling worthless. Feeling down and then feeling like I am ruining other peoples days because I can’t be happy. Then I hate myself and wonder why I can’t be normal!
It’s a very confusing thing. I would also describe it as feeling too many feelings all at once and also feeling no feelings at all!