Hi everyone!
I unfriended him on Facebook so I don’t see what he’s doing, cause it might drive me bonkers right now.
And I blocked him on Whatsapp to hopefully stop me from messaging him and obsessing, trying to fix things etc.
I said in my last message to him:

“So I’m going to block you so I don’t message you anymore. Not because I think you’re a dick but because I love you and I’m really struggling and I don’t want to feel like this. I need to give up hope, just stop hoping you could put all the horrible things behind you like I’ve tried to do (past relationships). Give up hop0e of every having our times together where we laugh, touch and care for each other. Your amazing and awesome just how you are. Never forget that xxx”

Its really not a case of blocking him to be mean. Just a way to help me let go :/
Thanks so much for all the advice guys. It’s really helped me a lot. Hoping is the thing I need to work on letting go the most it seems and just accepting I can’t change things.
What I’m starting to learn is that love is just not enough to make a relationship work.

Hi Anita..

honestly…I’ve just blocked and unblocked him twice in an hour..without communication with him :/ But you’re right.
I need to maybe just do it, stick to it and then work on me.

I know he needs to probably talk to someone and deal with his distrust and fear and getting hurt but he won’t. He is very set in his ways and stubborn and you’re right, no amount of reaching out works, I’ve tried, said all I can.
It’s just hard because I love him and I thought that would be enough, which I know isn’t the best way to think.