I would also like to mention – this hinders my ability to enjoy the people i love and who are around me, which bothers me and in a way it also offends me .. i offend myself, silly, right?

He knows and understands this confusing feeling for me. He hasn’t hurt me since then. Since we became official, which was after the whole texting his ex girlfriend, everything is great between us. Its just about me personally healing now. ts just really frustrating because I want to feel my love for him that I know is there. I don’t feel like I want to leave him or anything. I just can’t feel it what i know is in my head and my heart