WOW!! Your story is what I went through for 11 years. The best advice I can give is let go.. Start finding the strong you, the you before him. Men like him are parasites that suck the life out of you. When they feel they have gotten all they need, the become distant and evil..Focus on yourself..Look at yourself everyday and say, “I’m beautiful,” “I’m above and not beneath,” “Greater is He thats in me than he that’s in the world.” Start focusing on things that make you happy. Think about something you used to do before him that gave you peace..The most important thing is to love and accept yourself..I can relate to your message because I been in same situation. Mine, however, was physical, verbal, and emotional abuse.. I refused to let him kill my spirit. And though I thought that I was strong, I became complacent in his behavior. I tried to correct his wrongdoings when he blamed me for them. I had to tell myself that I mattered. My heart is too big to allow someone to make me feel small. Yes!! It hurts but everything happens for a reason. If God brought you out of this then look at it as being a lesson. The lesson could be building your strength!! Change your attitude about the situation and see the silver lining. Pain is real, so cry it out. But joy is around the corner. Open yourself up and allow it to come in..May you be encouraged and let the light shine through you!!