Dear Mefisto,
I can understand what you going through, coz I have been going through lot of shit stuff in life too. I have been fighting with myself for past 8 years now. And trust me I am loosing it all. But I know one thing, that some day it will turn around and when it will I will be better than even I ever wished for. Recently I started my own blog where I just write about anything I feel like just to get relax. One thing you must try harder is be social and don’t push your friends and well wishers out of your life. And sooner or later you will find things at right places.
All the best and try to be happy coz without your own help no one else can do anything for you.
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