Lily,
I appreciate your response so much. I’m very lucky to be surrounded by helpful and compassionate friends and family right now. A lot of people are saying that I need to do something to “get my mind off of him” but thats much easier said than done which is why I love the fact that you suggested to do something little every day. I genuinely am going to try to do so. I realize that time will probably make me feel better, but time is moving quite slowly at the moment, and thats a bit rough. I looked at Baggage Reclaim and after reading a few of the articles, I definitely agree that those were the words I NEEDED to hear (although sometimes not pleasant, they were the truth.) An update on the situation, after a 3 hour discussion last night, he said “I’m not in love with you and I never will be, so there is no point in continuing this relationship. I like you so much and basically everything about you is perfect, I’m just not in love with you.” Which, as you can imagine, stung. Though I appreciate the honesty and the fact that it is bringing me some sort of closure, I am struggling with his reasoning as we’re only 21, we’re so young! I don’t think he has to be in love with me right now, and I don’t understand how he can definitively say that he never will love me, but I can’t (and won’t try anymore) to change his mind. Thanks again for the support.
-C.