I just realised how long my post is, thank you for taking the time to read it.

I never considered being with anyone else, I always thought we would be together forever. I think that’s partly why the break up has hit me so hard.

I am 28, he is 27. He’s admitted that he doesn’t see himself as an adult yet and has a lot of fears about growing up. He is young emotionally for his age, while I’m probably a little older than my age which makes the 1 year age gap feel much bigger, which I’ve tried to take into account, but you can only do that for so long. He is seeing someone to help with his fears, this started after I left.

I’m not sure if he’s not ready to get married or if he’s not ready to get married to me. Or even if he thinks he would want it to be me when he is ready. I guess it’s worth asking him to think about that. There are no trust issues between us, I have never trusted anyone more in my life and I have never given him any reason to lose trust in me, he knows that while we were together I never even considered anyone else.

Thank you again for your advice. So much has passed between us, it’s hard to look at it with fresh eyes and see which direction is best.