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Maria_LParticipant
Hello,
In a world that teaches us to become successful, over-achievers, that grades us from the first moment we set our foot into school, that puts ‘happiness’ and success as the ultimate goal of existence, no wonder that a lot of people are not happy and satisfied with themselves. I am not sure what brought you to this state… probably something in your past that contributed to your low self esteem, possible social anxiety, and I think that the blend of it set these bad events on.. Or maybe as Inky said, a chemical dis balance in your body.. When we are over-exposure on light of ‘gadgets’, with poor nutrition, little social interactions, no physical activities… serotonin and endorphin in our body are cut. It contributes in feeling ‘lethargic’, sad, and not motivated. I see it a lot nowadays, especially with people who are ‘gamers’, ‘news junkies’ etc . Maybe this whole thing is a combination of these two factors, and few other more, and the real ‘cure’ is to attack it from different planes -psychological, physical and mental. I understand you are not motivated, but try something anyway, a new person to talk to, life-coach, counselor… Simple daily walk in the nature, at least 30 minutes. Sometimes we have to force ourselves to make the first step, sometimes life forces us to.
You got some wonderful thoughts in the previous posts, so I’d just like to add few minor things… About choosing to suffer. When someone says this, at first it looks, scary as a form of self sacrifice. But I just remembered.. I read interesting theory once, that sometimes it’s easier for our brain to brand us as ‘victims’ who suffer. Being victim means that you have a reasonable ‘alibi’ for many things- not to take responsibility for your life and misfortune. Sometimes (I repeat-sometimes), we grow fond of our prison of suffering, cause we are not certain how to find our way out and it’s scaring us. It’s not that we don’t wanna be happy and this is our natural state, but (sometimes), it’s just easier to give up and let go. Forgive me thousand times if I sound like that therapist (who is useless in my opinion), i don’t want you put additional pressure and blame on yourself, cause now you just need to heal from this state, one day at a time. But I am just giving a theory and idea, something to consider. Because very often our brain can play these kind of tricks on us, and we need to understand them in order to fight back.
It’s wonderful also that some of your friends gave you suggestions about what to do, but as you’ve noticed different things work for different people and don’t get frustrated if none of that interests you. You can’t force an interest or a hobby, so don’t worry. But I’d still insist at least to get out in nature and turn off the laptop for some time if it’s an issue. It always helps at least a little. You can get all the counseling in the world, but if the chemistry in your body is not right for some reason, you’d still feel bad not knowing why.
On the other hand, you reached out here and it’s a more than a good sign that you don’t wanna suffer, that part of you wants a way out. And having the will to get better is the first and most important step… Once you make it, you will find your way out sooner or later.
And if your job is the big source of your dissatisfaction, maybe when you feel ready, just start thinking what other option you have.. You don’t have to figure it out in one day… Just start writing down any crazy thought that crosses your mind. You never know, some of them might start making sense 🙂
And I’d also like to recommend a documentary that I personally found really refreshing when I felt ‘stuck’ in life and unhappy with myself.. It’s called ‘I am (2010)’. If nothing else it will be 90 minutes of fun ..
June 11, 2016 at 3:42 am in reply to: Please give your opinion on my situation. Please help me. #106918Maria_LParticipantHello,
I am so sorry to hear about your unfortunate series of events. It is very common in life that one bad thing happens after another, and we are caught blindsided, the rug is swept under our feet and we have to rebuild our life in some way.
There are many aspects you have to deal with right now, and you probably know, though as much as you’d like to, there is no quick fix to the situation. You have to deal with your parents, decide what to do with your academic future, your finances… and to deal with a probable loss (in some form) of someone you love.
I will only write now my opinion on the last issue (loss of someone you love), cause it would be a long post if I type about everything all at once. I will also not reflect on the behavior of your ‘friend’ though I find few things tricky in that regard…
Remember- you are human. When a situation like this occurs- losing someone close, it is normal to be followed by one of the most difficult emotions of all, it is called grief. And grief has five stages – denial, anger, bargaining, depression and acceptance. The best remedy is to be aware for this emotional situation right now, till you move to acceptance. I will repeat again, do not feel guilty or frightened from the emotional mix that is overwhelming you right now.. As much as it is unpleasant, it is normal reaction to the recent event, and trying to fix things quickly with actions, pills, unfortunately won’t work in the long run. Talking to someone who understands you, and dealing with one thing at a time, accepting that it normal to feel the way you do right now, I think it’s a best start. You have to give some time for your brain and body to re-calibrate to this new shocking situation, and to find a way to move on. You can help your self through different methods (some people turn to spiritual paths, some exercise, some try to re-focus their attention in order to get some relief). But i promise that as scary as it is, this is just one dark and big cloud from your life, and if you give it a time, it will pass. You will feel good again.
Be real of the situation with your friend- how would you react if you overheard someone declaring love to your fiancee? Making radical steps right now, I think will be only adding fuel to the fire. Also give that situation bit time to calm down. Maybe things will never be the same with the friend, but when all the heat goes away and all of you realize that the incident that occurred is in the past, there might be a chance you reconnect again. Nothing is written in stone, and life is full of surprises,and some of them are good.
I am not sure if it’s still a right time to talk about this… But think about your future. Being emotionally and financially dependent on anyone is never a good situation, ever. Hope if nothing else a good lesson will come out of this. Also I have two friends who neglected their academic education because they were dealing with matters of the ‘heart’ at that time. One year is ‘nothing’… One of those friends wasted 5 years on just few exams. You can not imagine her regret the years that followed. I am not telling to put a pressure on yourself when you are still vulnerable, give yourself some time now. But also promise yourself that next time you will fight for your happiness,for you well being, for the future you deserve. Next time you will be smarter and stronger, and you will be your own biggest emotional support and best friend.
And may I add, it is very noble of you to genuinely wish the happiness of your friend, even though you had feelings for her. This fact speaks for itself that you are a good person, you did your best, no mater what your parents or anyone else says.
Maria_LParticipantHello Janine,
You kind of described my relation to my mother in short… Looking from outside, as a stranger, she didn’t do anything wrong. We lost our father when I was 13, and since then she tried to take care of me and my sister, provide for us, clean the house, cook meals. From outside she was ‘the perfect’ parent, the victim, the strong woman raising 2 kids in tough times. But behind closed doors, there was constant screaming, blaming, constant negative energy. She comes from abusive alcoholic family, and she never knew happiness or love, so she was unable to channel it to us. She loved being the victim, loved the sympathy from the environment. No one believed me that she was an addict from pain killers and sedatives, that she smokes in the house though I begged her not to (my dad died from cancer, and I was worried about mine and my sister health, cancer genes can be passed on). And yes, at times she’d throw objects at me. I can’t remember how many times I stayed for days at a friends’ house, and later at my boyfriend’s.She wouldn’t even call to check where I am. No one from the family tried to help me cause how can you attack a grieving widow who dedicated her life to her kids (she never re-married or dated anyone after my father’s death). I can only say she was more interested in the ‘glory’, the sympathy and the attention from the environment than in men or the mental well being of her kids .
I didn’t really follow what are the reasons for your anger toward your mother, but I can totally relate to her constantly feeling like ‘the victim’,the good mum syndrome, the guilt trap, the support from your father that goes to her. I know you are teenager and your hormones make you even more sensitive in the situation, and part of you knows this, that’s why you feel guilt. But, I don’t know.. I still don’t have kids, but maybe the first step for you is to stop feeling guilty. Because we’ve all been teenagers, our future children will be teenagers, those are sensitive years, and girls your age shouldn’t be judged with the same criteria as someone who is 28 for example. If I were a parent, i think I’d expect my children to act impulsive, to be sensitive, to make mistakes at that time. I think that at that time parents should be the ones who make the ‘forgiving’, not the other way round.
And if she is ‘technically’ good mother, I think as well you do your best to be good daughter too. I was the best student in my class, never misbehaved, never stayed late, never did drugs, alcohol or smoked, never asked for expensive clothes, never did incidents of any kind. i was not ones praised for anything, she’d just rather yell for hours for a banal thing like ‘you didn’t wash the dishes 5 minutes after you finished your meal’. However innocent it seems, this can be quite damaging.
One of the most difficult lessons we have to learn in life is that our parents are just.. people, common mortals who also make mistakes. That they might have had best intentions, but it doesn’t mean that they always knew what’s best. We can only pray that we’ll get that part better with our children, and won’t allow trivial things or problems to build a wall of negative energy between us, that we will hear them when they have problem and help instead of attacking them. And we’d know where to draw the line. One of he toughest thing to do is to break free from our parents’ shadow, acknowledge that we have our own path to follow, and new horizons to reach. Forgive them for not doing their best, forgive us cause we expected for them to be perfect just because they were our parents. I know that it seems impossible for you to realize this at this point, but once you gain your independence, your distance, your objectivity, it will be much easier to get rid of that anger. Don’t feel guilty now because of it, I am afraid that it is only the time and the natural development of events that will get you there…Just be patient, and believe in yourself.
In the mean time, enjoy some of the perks of teenage life, like spending time with your friends, dreaming about the future, falling in love, listening to good music… These things have special wonderful taste when you are 18… I am sure you have many reasons to be happy and smile.
- This reply was modified 8 years, 6 months ago by Maria_L.
Maria_LParticipant… and do you know how many people’s lives goes downhill after winning the lottery..or after becoming rich and famous? 🙂
The one thing that i dislike from this ‘phenomenon’ of books based on the ‘law of attraction’ (that sell really fast and the only people they make rich and happy are their authors and publishing houses)… is the pressure and responsibility they put over our heads
1) We have to be ‘positive’ and happy, that is the ultimate goal of life, and everything else is a malfunction/disease
2) We are able and responsible to govern with our emotions and feeling, like we do in the material world, and God forbid we have a bad one (we should replace it with a good one like it’s an old sofa bed)…Well, guess what? We CAN’T control emotions all the time and.. it’s ok. It really is. And there are very few people on the planet that are happy most of their lives. Bad things happen, and it’s not our fault. Feeling down is part of being alive and we shouldn’t treat it as a ‘bad luck omen’, disease… try to deflect from it, substitute it with good thoughts, kill it with pills all the time. It might work for some situations, but when it comes to big things, ignoring it will just backfire. I am not saying I don’t believe in law of attraction, but I am starting to think that it defies some rules of psychology and human nature, and given the fact that I have many friends that try to live by it, I don’t see how it helped their emotional state. Even when they got some things they craved for :).
It’s funny cause I know for sure that some of our good thoughts manifest, I know there is nothing more fulfilling than a dream come true after long hours putting positive energy into it, working for it. Or finally reaching that calm blissful state of mind, being in peace with ourselves and find a purpose. I know I’ve had these things and states many times and i will have them many more times again.
But, to be honest, I have also always had periods of depression and anxiety as most of the people on this planet, and I don’t think there is a self-help book out there that can prevent these states or the situations that provoke them… And I refuse to fear these states anymore and treat them like they are going to harm me energetically. They are unpleasant, I don’t like them, but they are part of life. The might come again sometimes, but they will go, too. You can still function and do great stuff when you don’t have your best day. I will always remember the answer of a really good and incredibly smart friend the first time I told him I have depression. He said ‘well… some of the best people in history had it…’.
I don’t know… just a thought.. Let’s visualize and do positive affirmations, meditate, practice feng shui, meditate, do vision boards, do crystal healing.. 🙂 It can’t harm us 🙂 I still have my vision boards, mandalas, etc, and i love them. I actually went places I had on those boards 🙂
But let’s also accept that among these wonderful situations in our lives, there will be also bad ones, and instead of trying to stay away from them, let’s learn mechanisms to cope with them when they come… I might be under impressions under Acceptance and Commitment Therapy, but I still believe that it helped more people in distress than any
Law of attraction book 🙂Maria_LParticipanthello,
I am sorry to hear that your (ex) wife is bipolar 🙁 I know it’s difficult to judge someone with such mental illness but I also know how difficult it is to also live with a loved one that has it. My partner had the most traumatic childhood living under the same roof with verbally and physically abusive bipolar father. They needed decades till they got financially independent to move out from the same roof and during that time they went through hell with his sister and mother. Because of him I got very interested with the topic, especially because it’s an illness that can be easily inherited and I was scared that he or our future children might have it (though to be honest, he is 34 and i haven’t noticed any sign of it the last 8 years we’ve been together’).
I am not sure if she gets any professional help in form of medication and counseling, but she should, immediately… The best you can do is catch her in one of her better days and convince her to get some. Lately there are options for many medications that can provide these people life with much better quality, and though not every pill works for everyone, it is the very rare individual who doesn’t find a medication, or combination thereof, that significantly helps. And psychotherapy… It’s a must. If not you, someone else, close and dear to her should come and convince her to take a more serious approach to this (there are also many other methods.. but, we are not here to cure your wife, it’s about you this time).
My advice is also for now, till you get your independence, to talk to a counselor too. Because none of us here are professionals, and I am not sure we are qualified to provide significant help for your situation, cause it’s of a more delicate nature. I am just talking from experience… I also had a friend while I was younger that started manifesting bipolar behavior.. And her mother called me to tell me how to act with her when she is in her manic state, what questions (not) to ask, when to call for help (after she has spoken to psychiatrist). So while you are under same roof, do it, because I can also tell that people living with bipolar people need professional guidance too.
Though we can partially blame your wife because she is ill, also, I know for sure that no one can blame you (or anyone) for refusing to live or maintain relationship with this kind of person, because it is very difficult and challenging one. It’s a choice you make, to deal with it or not. Since you are divorced it looks like the choice has been made, and now I can only wish you the best of luck to gain your independence. If it comes unbearable, stay with a friend of relative even in further location, because when you are there she uses you as an outlet for her manic urges. It seems to me that you have many tangled relations with her that are all result from your financial dependence from her. Do not ‘get comfortable’ in your prison, i know it wasn’t your life goal to be her nurse, housekeeper, pet keeper in exchange for roof over you head. It’s time to look outside the box and free yourself, explore more solutions. Start thinking about who will replace you once you get your own life… In the meantime get any help you can afford, if nothing else through internet research about how to deal with bipolar person. As i said, it’s a special situation, a medical one and rules and advice that come from common sense do not apply here…
Maria_LParticipantHello,
Whenever I hear a story like this, I always wonder how this kind of women manage to find a nice guy and make his life a living hell… while many good ones are alone? I am sorry that you are in this impossible situation and put in the corner to choose the lesser of two evils – to put up with a life like this in order your son to have both parents… Or to put yourself through the pain of divorce. The most difficult crossroads in life are those who lead to pain whatever direction you choose.
She is definitely needs to grow up, and unfortunately people don’t grow up just like that. And I have complete trust that you have explored every method available to you to improve the situation. She obviously doesn’t wanna cooperate or listen. Is there anyone in her life that she does listen to actually, takes advice from? A friend, a parent ? I know it’s a long shot, but maybe involving a third neutral party that can reach out to her is worth a try?
And does she take you for granted? Is she aware that she can loose this home? Have you actually had ‘the talk’, the serious talk, (not about the garbage or the car). That this marriage is not working out and it’s going downhill. And unless something changes you will both suffer from the separation, but mostly your son? Some people don’t realize what they have till the moment they are about to loose it all.
I wouldn’t dare to suggest separation to anyone, but it’s obvious that whatever you do, you need to take a look at this from a very distant perspective, few years from now, and think of drastic changes, that might improve the outlook of that future one way or another. She is obviously also frustrated and unfulfilled from the tone you described, but I also wouldn’t dare to analyse her or seek for excuses for such behavior.
And I am sure of one thing, whatever you do, don’t put that woman in a vehicle until she gets a proper driving ‘education’ with instructor or … however that goes in your place (in my country you can always take extra driving lessons, even after you have your permit). She is a danger not just to herself or your finances, also for other participants in the traffic. Having your permit doesn’t mean that you drive safely on your own always…
I wish you the best of luck!!!
Maria_LParticipantHello,
What did you like doing before you met him? Have you had an interest or talent you neglected? Have ever had a… ‘bucket list’? 🙂 I am sure there has been a moment where you saw a poster, an add that grasped your attention and then you just looked the other way. Now it’s good time to look back 🙂
I am so happy you feel passionate about life again… Even if you can’t dig up something from the past, the options are limitless, it all depends what kind of person you are. Different things work for different people. If you are more ‘dynamic’ maybe some sport and outdoor activity, travel somewhere you’ve never been, doesn’t have to be too far.. If you are more inclined toward ‘mental’ work, maybe learn a new language, take artistic course,learn to play musical instrument. Ballroom dancing is always a good idea too 🙂 If you like to explore in the spiritual world there are wonderful things to do in that ‘department’ too. I also think that volunteering for a cause you strongly believe in is amazing too. You can meet new people through these activities. Or if you have limited options about exploring your interest, just join the thing that is closest locally.
If you are interested to meet new people from different cultures that share your interests, you can try through sites like Inter nations, and meetup…I know many people in Europe who had wonderful experiences with these, I even attended one meetup myself. My sister also was a member of couchsurfing for a while, she wanted to have friends from cultures different from ours, she still remembers gladly her guest from Japan, Korea, etc….
Enjoy your journey and have fun.. Don’t push yourself to find a passion or a friend. Just open your heart and mind, put a big smile on your face and they might find you 🙂
Maria_LParticipantHello…
Sorry to hear about your panic attack returning, I can highly relate to this cause currently I am kind of recovering from really really bad panic and anxiety disorder too. After having 5-10 panic attacks per day, I am two months ‘free’ from panic attacks. I believe I am better, but also I kind of fear that this will be a process, that they will return at some form at some point… etc. I can only hope and trust that I will get better at dealing with them by then, and can count on myself and my coping mechanism.
I don’t believe that you are back to the start, because you had this situation after a successful year, I think that you are doing well and it’s normal that some unresolved issue might come back after a while, just in order for us to deal with it and move forward again. The mind is an enigma, and sometimes ‘freezes’ some situations because they were big shock that couldn’t be handled when they occurred, and than slowly releases them after a while. What we believe is ‘hurting us’, might be just our mind trying to protect us. This is why you just ‘freeze’ for second when you are crossing the street and a car with big speed rushes toward you. I remember, when my father died of cancer when I was 13, I wasn’t aware of the situation, and couldn’t cry, and for almost a month I kept making the table for lunch at the time he usually used to come back from work.
They say panic attacks go away once you stop fearing them, and since you already battled this once, give yourself some credit that you can do it again, each time faster and better than the last. You just need to build up your confidence, identify the triggers in the future, and stop the situation in the very beginning, before it develops to dizziness, strong heartbeat, sweating, shaking, feeling of drowning etc… That is the ‘cure’ from what I understood. Identify in the start, and don’t let it take you further.
I understand that past trauma has to be dealt at some point, but (also just from my experience) I find it much better when I focus on the future and gain some distance from it rather than facing it when it can easily consume me, especially in the heat of anxiety. When I am highly distressed I’d rather first help myself to go back to neutral state by refocusing on something else (joyful and positive if possible), and relieve my physical symptoms by ‘attacking’ from the physical side (exercise, food, supplements). I return to the issue when I have proper distance and perspective and feel ready. But this is just from my experience, I am not professional and don’t have the whole picture in your case 🙂
Cognitive Behavior Therapy is wonderful thing to help dealing with the ‘triggers’ for panic (your mind is playing tricks on you to believe that you ‘will have a heart attack’ or faint… but you won’t, trust me… and you can trick your mind too ;). If nothing else, there is this wonderful website http://www.paniccure.com/ . Just go through the free introduction and it will be a great start to convince yourself that a panic and anxiety attack can’t physically harm you, you can’t ‘go crazy’, faint and have a heart attack. They are just unpleasant, that’s all. Anxiety fades away when you stop fearing the next attack. There are many testimonials of people successfully overcoming this situation, and I am sure that you (and I) will be part of these stories.
Do not blame yourself, or push yourself hard to have happy and calm days all the time. It’s ok for us to experience bad days too. Some of the most successful people on the planet have difficult traumatic childhood and life behind them, so do not fear your past also. Embrace your life as it is. I am not psychologist, so I wouldn’t dare to give advice on past traumas and how to resolve them (I have my own too, big ones, trust me :), but what I am trying to say people move on all the time on their own terms, it can be accomplished, and it makes them better and stronger.
Also, I don’t know your situation with medication, and that’s another subject maybe. But as someone who is dealing with this, I personally take on daily basis magnesium, high concentration of b-complex (especially b3 vitamin is essential to this), and omega 3. Also I read a lot of wonderful testimonials about other supplements like inositol (I plan to continue with it in the future, there are researches that in certain amounts it does wonders for anxiety and other disorders. But consult your doctor about this if you take prescribed medications). Do your own research, I always believe that we should give herbal medicine and supplements a try before conventional medications which are ‘problem’ on their own (most of them highly addictive).
I sincerely wish you all the best and I am positive that you will get better again very soon!!
Maria_LParticipantHello,
It seems to me that you care about this girl, and the feelings are returned… It’s not easy (looking from a girl’s perspective) being with someone for 20 months and kept listening that things should be ‘casual’, regardless of the religion… And also girls sometimes go for the ‘safe’ choice in any culture, someone who will be good husband and father to their children. Coming also from more traditional environment I can relate to this… You told her again and again that you can’t be that… I can only imagine the suffering she went through hearing these words again and again while she wanted to hear something else from the only guy she’s been with. Maybe she told you about the other guy out of despair and hope that you’ll realize that she has options.
Think really good if it’s fear of commitment your issue.. sometimes you can’t predict the date when you are ready to meet ‘the one’. It just happens. I think you should try your best to approach her, this time do it differently… There is a saying ‘boys fall in love through their eyes, girls fall in love through their ears’.So choose wisely your words and future actions. You have nothing to loose, and pride and ego are overrated…
I wouldn’t worry much about the other guy if I was you, though I understand that you might feel some kind of emotional betrail. From what I understood he was treated this whole time like plan B.. And one of my best friends used joke all the time ‘a girl has to always have plan B’…lol 🙂
I wish you the best of luck, and if things work out please don’t bring up this issue to her, all the time you both have an argument … You’ll end up in endless unhappy circle…Forgive, forget, move on and be happy 🙂 Sometimes it’s that simple
Maria_LParticipantHi Spen,
I understand your struggle, cause I am also trying to ‘find my way’ since I can remember. I have explored the teachings of many world religions, philosophers, and I can only say that I found something comforting and inspiring in most of them. I think there isn’t just one way, the right way. If there is God, I don’t think that God understands words, or protocols, or rituals… just the pure energy we send to the Universe through them. You will feel in your heart what is the true and what is the right way to express yourself and re-connect.
I often wonder if humanity is ready at all to lift it’s consciousness to that level to understand God… I have a feeling that all the religions are trying to say something, and it’s the same thing…. but also most of the teachings are distorted through time, re-modeled to serve someone, and different human perspective had taken it’s toll also. Maybe we will progress… I’d like to believe that the time will come when also religion (or spirituality) will merge with science and we will see clear how we are one.
I won’t impose my ways, cause as I said, I accept that we all might have different ways. I might recommend a wonderful documentary though, called Kymatica.. It offers interesting insight and explanation to the question ‘how are we connected’ 🙂
Maria_LParticipantHi Ashley,
Just sending you my best wishes, and I know you’ll get out of this stronger and better. The 20’s … I think it’s the most turbulent decade of the life when we have to establish ourselves as grown-ups, find a job, re-evaluate our past relationships/ friendships, because let’s face it- life is changing us, and sometimes we barely recognize the people we were so close to. Depression and anxiety is very common in all this mix. Your last question of your first post was’ Anyone else going through a period of no close friends/relationships?’
When it comes to the ‘friends’ part consider me your soulmate…lol 🙂 I moved 2000km recently, leaving behind fake friendships, or ‘estranged’ friendships, and re-positioned myself in ‘no friendships at all’ situation. I know it’s hard, and as much as you try to be strong on your own, you need close human relationships, some people more than others. Everything seems better in my mind when you have someone to call, but.. is it right to rely so much on other people?
But it seems to me you are carrying a lot of ‘baggage’ with tangled relations with your friends and ex. I know it’s a bitter-sweet situation, but have you asked yourself do these relationships serve you more, or hurt you more? And more important, how is your relationship with- being on your own? I am asking cause I just discovered that I am scared to be on my own, dealing with anxiety and depression, I was always seeking emotional support in other people.
I won’t add much about your intoxicated friend, cause you got a lot of good answers already… People say stupid things under influence, it’s fine as long as it’s a one time thing and not a habit.
What I will add- maybe it’s time for us to become our own best friends, and start ‘small’ with other people..Do things differently this time. Get to know them bit by bit before we get too invested. I find comfort from my loneliness with simple conversations with new people I meet in all kind of groups and enviroments (aerobic lessons, organized movie nights etc…). I am starting to enjoy it.. Loneliness.. it’s scary at first, but gives us great chance to reflect on our demons, re-arrange our mental wiring that caused us problems for so long.
I hope that everything will work out for the best!…
Maria_LParticipantHello,
I have to say, unfortunately, I have to agree with the last two posts. I have been also in hostile work environment for 3 years, not like this though, no one threatened my life. Tried everything from standing up to them to ‘going under the radar’. i know nothing works. The only thing that goes away is your joy and your good health.
And how is he with other co-workers? Isn’t anyone else complaining? I am sure you are not the first or the last of his victims. And do you have an information that he actually harmed anyone? I had a neighbour who used to make threats like these all the time,’I’ll find you… etc’… and found I them intimidating, most of the people did. But when I think back, he was just ‘barking’, never did anything.
In these situations I also blame managers, I’ve seen plenty of situations where good people quit, and someone like him stays… and the company loses money everytime a good employee leaves. So it’s not your defeat, it’s theirs. You’ll be valued somewhere else better I am sure. He is not winning, they are not winning. And given his criminal nature, you don’t have to threaten or lift a finger, these people get in problems up to their neck, before you blink. They are target to the police, but also to other criminals like them. And good old karma… 🙂 It will get him, without an address.
Some ‘fights’ are just not worth it….
Maria_LParticipantHello Name,
Have you tried talking to her? Asking her directly why she has changed? If she wants to be with that guy instead of you ? How long have you been together? Did she ever expressed feelings like love to you in the past? I personally also hate when people do that- they are technically with you, but slowly pushing you away and dragging what you had in the mud… One honest, even hurtful conversation, I think it’s better than months of ‘slow’ torture, cheating, and slowly and painfully drifting away. You know, as they say ‘a painful end is better than a pain without an end’…
You sound to me like you are sad and afraid to loose her, which is normal, depression is something more serious and I hope that it hasn’t spread it’s dark cloud over you… or her. Especially if she seems fine when she is around other people. When you are depressed, you don’t feel like talking to absolutely anyone, or getting out of bed.
And ask yourself what advice would you give to yourself if you were someone else, objectively observing the situation? I would say that maybe this seems hard now, but life is… life. Some relationships work out, some don’t, some go through rough patches. But I am sure you’d say to yourself you deserve better than a girlfriend who is flirting with your friend, and is not honest with you.
I wish you all the best, forgive me if I was to judgmental, I still don’t know what your girlfriend is going through… But I hope that whatever happens will work out for the best, and will be inspired by love (toward yourself also), not by fear…..
- This reply was modified 8 years, 6 months ago by Maria_L.
Maria_LParticipantHello, aundrea!!
I also kind of ‘stopped’ when you wrote panic attack. This was kind of my life story with my mother, always found her reasons to be emotionally abusive, and blow off some steam on me (never my sister or anyone else though, just with me).And mostly her excuse were stupid little domestic things, like cleaning. And I focused on that issue for such a long time with such intensity, so I didn’t give attention to the panic attack situation.
But when I moved out and she wasn’t an issue anymore, that’s when I realized how serious they were, much bigger problem than her. She was gone, but anxiety stayed and panic attacks stayed. They changed me, paralyzed me, made me something that I am not. The smiling, brave and positive girl was gone, all that was left of me was a shadow of that girl, living in constant fear of the next attack. Scared of being alone, going somewhere new.. I don’t wanna scare you, just as someone who is fast-forward 12 years later from your situation, I wanna give you some insight. If left untreated, they can really make your life difficult. They will go away (doesn’t mean you’ll live every day with this), but they may return in bursts, and though they can’t harm you physically and you can’t ‘go crazy’ from them, they can rip you off from peaceful rewarding life. And you only live once, you deserve the best life you can have.
I don’t know what causes them in your case, maybe it’s a mix of hormones, sensitive nature and constant stress. Try to talk to your father when he is in a good mood, and explain to him that you might be developing anxiety and panic disorder because of his meaningless complaining and yelling. That the dirty dish isn’t worth your health. That you need help, and most of all his help. If he isn’t understanding and thinks you are over reacting, seek for help elsewhere. I have tried every method to battle them, and few things that can really help are: cognitive behavioral therapy (CBT), physical aerobic workout, and from supplements magnesium and strong vitamin b-complex (especially b3 vitamin). There is much more to this, these are just the first few basic things. And if feels so wonderful and rewarding when you come to the point that they no longer can harm you, you are not scared of the next one, cause you know how to deal with it. You learn and train how to calm yourself in every situation, even with your father. All these various methods increase dopamine and endorphin, so you might end up feeling better than ever before.
If possible, try to shift your focus on yourself than your father, you have too.. There is a chance he won’t change, but that doesn’t mean that he should change you for worse. Try to forgive him one day in future when you are ready, cause parents often cause us pain cause that have never experienced happiness themselves.. that will set you free 🙂
Maria_LParticipantDear sandstorm,
Maybe this post of mine will be more like ‘wishing you good luck’ and sending positive energy than giving a real advice. Cause I am kind like you when it comes to falling to quickly and suffering too deep when it comes to love, and trying to protect myself (from myself) most of my life 🙂 I have spent a lot of time exploring the psychology of relationships, analyzing, trying to help myself… I can say for sure that as much as you try to play it smart in love, 50% is just pure luck 🙂 Cause we all see smart people failing to choose the right partner, and other people just have it all, just like that without even trying. So I hope my positive energy will get to you.
Also other thing occurred to me… Ask yourself what is it that you seek in a partner? And what was your longest relationship ? Cause in my case, being too ‘dreamy’, and sensitive, I think I was always in love in someone… anyone out there who could fill in already good pre-prepared place. Place that should be source to romance, be my sanctuary from the world and my own demons. I put a lot of wrong people there… But I found a great guy 8 years ago… I was 23, he was 27. We are still together 🙂 I also fell for him without thinking too much, and I can just say that i was so lucky. But….
Even if you find that special ‘one’, things change over time, people change… after 7-8 years the romance will definitively not be the same, you won’t be the same. You’ll face real life problems and your other half can not always be there, every second, to fight your insecurities, demons. The problems will await one way or another 🙂 What I am trying to say is.. maybe we get hurt cause we are ‘romancing’ too much, expecting too much, coloring the imperfections with pink, just to convince ourselves that we have that love, like in the movies, and that is the purpose of our life? Maybe you need to get to know the other person first well… but before that you also need to get to know yourself bit better. Lower the expectations, always find some time to feel comfortable with yourself first. We can’t find the cure in romance all the time 🙂
And another thing.. maybe I am wrong with this (talking just from my experience), but I think that people like us (the dreamy,sensitive, romantic type 🙂 )… we should seek a partner who is more down to Earth, and can ‘balance’ us when we loose the ground. Someone who will inspire us to become more stable, emotionally and financially. I failed with people who were too much like me when it comes to their emotional ‘wiring’. We’d always end up in this dramatic, destructive cycle, expecting too much from each other and failing, cause we couldn’t help ourselves in first place. My current partner maybe fails to understand my sensitive nature sometimes cause he is ‘not in the clouds’ like me all the time, but he always has the ‘coolness’ to respect it. And to pick me up when I fall instead of syn-chronically freak out with me everytime I do 🙂 It can be really helpful in the long run.
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