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Marine Dad
ParticipantHi all,
I have been following this thread and been debating to comment. Â This is the first time I have posted on this site, but have used the site awhile for inspiration. Â I suffer from depression and severe anxiety. Â I just recently got divorced from my wife of nearly 25 years. Â Our only child decided to forego college (which would have been paid in full by us) to become a United States Marine and will be deploying to the Middle East this coming January. Â I have our longtime dog who is aging and in declining health very rapidly. Â Depression runs deep in my family and I suffer from it pretty regularly. Â My challenge is I worry constantly about the future and the “what if’s”…to the point it sends me so far down the rabbit hole it prevents me from counting my blessings. Â The what if’s are plentiful – what if my job gets bad and I lose income ( I am commission sales), what if something happens to my son, what if I lose everything…… you get the idea. Â I have never seriously contemplated suicide, but I have many times hit that low point of feeling hopeless….tired of this crippling way of thinking dragging me down. Â I now live alone with my aging dog. Â I even worry about her dying!!! Â I do have a strong support system with my siblings as many of us live with this disease. Â We all inherited this from my father. Â He has tried suicide 3 x and failed each time thank God. Â Today he is 84 and thriving. Â Saman you are not alone. Â I am a highly successful business professional without financial problems, but my biggest worry has been that I will lose it all. Â I feel it is all happening now. Â When in reality that is not the case. Â I am experiencing spme significant loss in my life right now, but not all is lost. Â I have learned to be an advocate of my own physical and mental health. Â I wanted to share my story because we all have our triggers or life experiences that take us to those dark places. Â If you have not sought therapy I highly recommend it. Â Do it first for yourself ….. take the steps as hard as they may be AND do it for your daughters. Â Trust me my friend they are worth fighting for! Â I am in the middle of a pretty dark struggle right now and writing this has been very therapeutic! Â You are not alone. Â I am not sure if this is helpful, but I too am here if I can be of any help.
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