Hello,

First of all I am very concerned to hear that you have suicidal thoughts. I am sending you all my love and warmth from Manchester England and I want to tell you that I believe you are very brave to post this and even braver for trying to pursue your dreams.
Sometimes the people in our life love us but because they are scared of taking risks and follow their dreams themselves they tell us that we can’t follow our dreams !! They are wrong – trust your guts and your instinct !! Make new friends with people taht share the same passion as you and will inspire you in the positive !! I think what you did is awesome and I do not see why you could not travel again.. Other people definition of what is acceptable is that and only that THEIR definition NOT YOURS – You can create your own happiness and reality with its good and bad like all of us but I believe you should follow your heart and believe in yourself !!! I am 36 years old and I have a lot of dreams similar to yours and I will not let anyone tell me they are unrealistic. it is their belief not mine! If you truly want something go get it because even if it does not work out the way you want you will learn , grow and more importantly you will be doing, living, breathing your truth 🙂 You are beautiful, brave and please do not compare yourself to your sister she is following her path and it is simply a different path from yours. start following yours even if it is a less traveled path.. to me it is even better 🙂 Just be you ! Only compare yourself to previous version of yourself and never to anyone else !! with loads of love and positive vibes sent for you. Life is beautiful and so are you, embrace all that you are and believe in yourselves and find people who will support you and be enthusiastic like you about travelling, growing doing different things 🙂 kisses,Marie

Hello,

First I don not think you are a loser and I hope you will start talking to yourself kindly because the way we talk to ourselves create our reality to a very big extent… that is good news because the better you talk to yourself the quicker you can change your reality. It might not be easy but it is possible.

the other thing I would had is that you seem to have a negative belief about yourself being a loser- quiter… I am not sure when that started ? who ever told you you were a loser ? Often we end up believing things that we have been told when we were little even if they are not true… If you really find you cannot break this pattern of sabotaging yourself, it does not mean you are not capable or that there is something wrong with you. It means you need to get to know yourself and understand why you do what you do. Once you have some awarness you can work on changing your attitude and beliefs. Often times we need help in doing so and that can be – reading books about the “subject”, blogs with other people’s experiences of similar problems.. there is a very good platform on the net where you can find tones of information about everything and anything and it is called ted x. look it up. As well sometimes therapy can help, it sure helped me loads to move on from destructive thinking pattern that were unhelpful in my life too… Life is a journey and all that matters is now and doing your best , growing a day at a time and smiling, loving ourselves step by step… You are worthy and you have dreams that it s awesome now you need to work at undoing the barriers you have but you will grow and you can realise your dreams no matter what they are- be patient, love yourself, do your best and move forward !!! Hope this helps. a lot of love from another human being only doing their best too 🙂 xxx