I’m sorry for the situation you are in. 🙁
Two thoughts have come to mind tonight:
Without pain or challenges in your life there is no growth. I think that situations like these are somewhat of a blessing because they give us the ability to learn valuable lessons about ourselves, other people and life in general. I think this situation will help me grow as a person and make me better in the next relationship that I am in, or if I end up getting back together with her, it will make our relationship much stronger because I will have learned so much about why it didn’t work out.
This is a really great opportunity for me to work on myself, to learn to love and accept myself. I now see that I was far to needy towards her and that must have been a turn off for her.
I’m also really underweight, so this is a fantastic chance for me to give it my all and really try my best to gain some weight and to work out and gain some muscle.
As much as I wish I could do something to get her back, you’re right, anything I do right now is likely just to push her away more. That means that the only thing I can do is step back, give her some space and let go for now. There’s nothing I can do but work on myself to become a better, stronger me.
I think that maybe once I re open contact with her after some no communication then maybe there is something I can do, like talking to her about it.. But for now. Doing nothing is the best thing I can do.