I HAVE BEEN SO DEPRESSED, SAD, ANGRY, I AM NOT HAPPY. I LIVE EVERYDAY JUST TO EXIST. I’M AFRAID TO GO TO BED AT NIGHT FOR FEAR OF NOT WAKING UP TOMORROW, I HAVE THE SAME ROUTINES EVERYDAY, I TAKE EVERYTHING OUT ON MY SPOUSE, I’M ANGRY, MAD, I LASH OUT AT THE LITTLEST THINGS HE DOES, I WANT TO GO BACK IN TIME WHEN OUR MARRIAGE WAS AT THE BEGINNING STAGES BUT I AM NOW ALMOST 60 AND I FEEL I HAVE NOTHING TO LIVE FOR. I AM SO UNHAPPY AND IN A RUT AND I DON’T KNOW WHAT OR HOW TO PULL MYSELF OUT OF IT. I AM RETIRED AND SPEND MY DAYS ON FACEBOOK OR WATCHING TV OR JUST EXISTING. I’M LOSING WEIGHT, I’M CONSTANTLY WORRYING ABOUT MY HEALTH EVEN THOUGHT I’VE BEEN TO DOCTOR’S I’M ALWAYS THINKING I HAVE CANCER OR SOMETIME IS TERRIBLY WRONG WITH ME, I HAVE AN UTI RIGHT NOW, WHICH I CONSTANTLY GET, AND I THINK I HAVE BLADDER OR URINARY TRACT CANCER, I’M ALWAYS THINKING NEGATIVE INSTEAD OF POSITIVE, I WANT TO BE MY OLD SELF AGAIN, HAPPY AND FEELING GOOD, NOT DEPRESSED AND FEELING SICK ALL THE TIME. i NEED YOUR ADVICE ON HOW TO GET MY OLD SELF BACK.