Hello Kelly. Much love to your heavy heart. I can identify and relate in so many ways. I’m currently going through a very similar situation. It can be so terribly confusing and difficult to keep the fear at bay. It’s amazing what influence the heart/hormones/romantic attachments can have over the logical mind. If one of my girlfriends were going through what I am right now, I’d be very clear about what I would do if I were her! LOL!! I believe that if I continue to go through the “process” and with the help of prayer & meditation, I’ll become clear about the direction that serves me best. I hope the same for you. (Gotta love these opportunities for growth, eh?? :/ hehe)