Thank you. I seem to be getting a lot of people telling me to go! You’re right that mine and his worry is that ill start resenting it later if I don’t do it. I just can’t help thinking I’m throwing something amazing away that I won’t find again. But I guess you can’t know the right thing to do until it’s done x

He could! He doesn’t want to move away from his home and he doesn’t really have any desire to travel but if he thought he would lose me he’d try to make it work. You’re right I really feel like I need an adventure and to try something new. He would never move away from home though so if I wanted to make it work I’d have to come back but he could visit. I’m off to see my mam in taiwan for a couple of weeks in October and I think if this feeling hasn’t gone ill look at maybe going back over and spending longer there…even if it does mean quitting my job – eeep! Maybe I’ll get it out of my system and be desperate to come back 🙂 I probably need to stop looking at every decision like it’s the end of the world!

Thank you so much for taking the time to respond. Everything you’ve said does ring very true with me. I do have a sense that time is slipping away and I need to make a decision now or ill never get the chance again…how dramatic! Perhaps I need to learn to relinquish that control and let life happen. I feel like I maybe need to sort my job out and then maybe ill gain a clearer perspective. I definitely need to learn how to untangle things and look at them separately…not entirely sure how to accomplish that! A month ago I was happy and strong and now I can’t seem to pull myself out of negative thought spirals that keep pulling me down and muddying my perspective. Thanks again, you’ve given me a lot to think about