Thank you for your kind reply, SSS, which I’m pondering now.

I’ve witnessed people being/feeling very uncomfortable around people with a different belief and wanting to challenge them.  I suppose I do not feel ready to be challenged.   So that leaves me with a dilemma of what to say, because I no longer want to take part in some of the same activities with people who know me and I am unsure how to extricate myself from these commitments whilst I process this.

Dear SSS,

Thank you very much for replying.   I don’t really feel comfortable about sharing what is said, and to be honest a lot of the time i can’t remember things very clearly after its happened, but just that its difficult at the time and not on my side.    I don’t think its guides as such.   I’m thinking this through more as I type this reply.