hi rulala,
i am 47 years old with experience in long distance and interacial relationships, i think times will be tough for a while but trust me, the only way is to love yourself first than anybody else, the betrayal is super hard but if he doesnt love you anymore you have to let it go, i dont think you should dwel on it, you are a wonderful person with lots to offer so find another soul to give him the best of you….