Thankyou memm, that gives me some hope.

I have recently done up weekly routines/schedules to take the stress out of finding time to study, keep the house clean, decide what to get for dinner and to make more time to try new activities and bond with my son and I was sticking to them for the most part but had a car accident last Sunday and have no way around so I’m stuck at the moment.

My son, since the accident, has been very clingy and hasn’t been sleeping properly so I am also very sleep deprived which I know would be making things worse.

But even on the best days it’s so hard to get motivated! It’s like my mind is busy with all these great ideas and plans but I’m not physically putting them into action even though I know I am very capable.

Logically, I know I am very lucky, I have nothing in my life that is worth complaining about and have all the opportunity in the world at my hands. I just want the will to live back so I’m not merely pushing myself through the day because of my son, I want to enjoy life.

I refuse to believe that there’s no cure for depression, there HAS to be something. I’ve read about the GAPS diet which is supposed to cure things like Autism, schizophrenia and bi polar and have tried a few things from the book but the catch 22 being I’m too tired and depressed to go to much effort with food. High doses of niacin have been used to treat schizophrenia for years but a friend of mine had tried it for an extended period of time and he has worse anxiety than I ever did and is just as depressed as me so no change there. I’ve had improvements with certain things, for instance I had severe anxiety up until I quit gluten and after3-4 weeks without it my anxiety vanished.

I’ve heard of electronic shock therapy curing a friends husband and things like saffron are as effective as prozac but again that’s just treating the symptoms. I cannot and will not live like this, I would give anything to rid myself of depression and be able to function like a normal person.