Mermaid,

Im 30 myself and have recently had similiar feeelings that you are currently feeling. I just now finally got a good job and found myself in a stable relationship. I felt “late” to the game so to speak for quite some time. My biggest realization was, who said i had to have all my ducks in a row by 30? or have everything figured out by 30? Everyone does things at their own pace, some of my friends are married with kids and i am NO where near that stage in my life. I wasnt ok with it at first, but im slowly getting there. Its hard to put yourself first and take care of you. But you just need to sometimes listen to your intuition and do the first thing that comes to your mind. Believe in yourself and that what you are doing at that given moment, is what you are suppose to be doing. And if later it turns out that it wasnt, you learn life lessons from that and move on to your next adventure, no matter how big or small it may be.

You’ve made it to the fantastic age of 30…who says that you have missed out on anything at all? I am a firm believer that everything happens for a reason – the path that you follow in life was meant to be yours. For example, it took me years to find my dream job, and one day it just happened to fall in front of me. And sometimes that just happens – one decision leads to another that leads to mistakes or the best thing that could every possibly happen.

My point is, i had to take a risk… this one happened to work out really well for me. In the past others have not, BUT if i didnt try and attempt at other things, it would not have lead me to where i am now.

Sometimes its hard to hear your own voice — try meditating — grasp at the things that jump out at you first. You know who you are and what you want to do, deep down you do. Don’t be scared to be who you are and who you want to be.