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Lana Mills

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  • in reply to: 2013 Worse Year of my life #44996
    Lana Mills
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    I feel for both of you, DM Clemons and Jamie. I have also had the worst year of my life. I recently became divorced because, to make a long story short, my ex-husband’s family made my life a living hell for several years. They always mentioned how I wasn’t right for him, that he should have married a girl from his country, spread rumors about me, tried to take my money, tried to control all my life decisions, and treated me horribly. It got to the point where he always chose his family over me and never defended me, and I finally placed myself first after trying to be good to him for many years. I told him that I wanted a divorce and no longer wanted anything to do with him and his family. Although I feel an incredible sense of relief and freedom now that the horror of it all is ebbing, during the worst of it I was suicidal. I kept thinking that no one would ever love me, that if my ex didn’t value me that no one will, and experienced what I’m sure many other divorced women feel: a terrible sense of stigma for feeling like “damaged goods”. I realized after all of this that I had been putting myself last for many years and everything I was doing was to please others and not myself, and that I had neglected to love and take care of myself. I know this is a different struggle from your financial straits, but I wanted to let you know that my life is finally turning around and I am feeling reinvigorated and happy, as I’m sure you will soon. Just hold on and you will see.

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