Hi Andrea – Take it week by week. You don’t have to decide once and for all right now. Pick a neutral day of the week. Maybe Wednesday. On that day review. Are things going better or worse? How did I handle this week? How am I feeling about things generally? Choose a friend you can trust to help with feedback. Sometimes, when the world is changing fast it’s hard for us to see our own situation clearly. If you have the energy to spare it might be worth the time to consider why you think using meds makes your self care inauthentic. I’m not advocating one way or another, but experience is experience, meds or no. If meds create enough space to be present perhaps your perspective on all the challenges will change and then the meds will just drop away. Wishing you all the best.