am pathetic? 🙂

thank you Lisa for your heart-warming post. I too suffer guilt and can empathise with people who can’t find complete peace.

thanks for your honest and sincere post Aislynn.
Firstly the news. If it depresses you, I’d skip it . If you are a reflective person, (which you seem to be), I don’t think it is useful.
I go into survival mode if the news is too atrocious.Just block it out. I have to in order to get on with my life. The state of the world can really get me down. I worry about the economy (being unemployed) and of course ISIS is the big one now. Gun control in the US is another one. I mean, I can’t solve it, so it is better I think about something else.
There was one documentary I watched this year about a poor child from Russia who was bought by a couple and just used a plaything for paedophiles. So disturbing was the story, that I feel physically nauseous just contemplating it.Better I not spend too much time thinking about this, otherwise I will just feel despair all the time.
re death penalty. Look I don’t agree with you, Aislynn, but I respect your opinion. Death penalty in Australia hasn’t been in since the sixtees. I know a lot of these people are almost sub-human, acting worse than animals, but I feel the death penalty conjures up images of medieval barbarism. it would be a practical solution, as most prisons are overcrowded. Maybe some prisoners want to be executed. Well let them get their wish.Otherwise, I’m not going to join a protest group supporting the reintroduction of the death penalty in Australia.

New Year’s Resolution?
to lose 1000 mg in weight before Christmas
that is realistic I feel

I’ll give you my view, for what it is worth. There is actually no reason for you to quit this relationship, except you heard a “rumour”?? that he was violent in his previous relationship?? Not clear on that one. You mention the age gap didn’t bother you but I’m getting the feeling that it did.
I think the on/off nature of the relationship is mainly coming from your dissatisfaction, no?
Being an older guy myself, I tend to sympathise with your partner more. I would be annoyed if you kept calling me up, because you can’t decide to just move on. Your post confirms to me that relationships with a big age difference don’t last long . And who’s to say you’re not the difficult soul?

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The truth is Jack, I am afraid, sad, frustrated, and unsure…wanting to cry but nothing comes out..

Communicate like this and you will get universal empathy in my view. Learning how to express the pain within, will connect you to the human race. We all long for connection. How many of us have felt exactly the same as this!
I treat this forum as a chance to improve my writing skills, process my thinking and emotions and learn how to connect better. It’s not how many replies you get, but the quality of the replies. I’m biased because I think Anita is usually right on track. You won’t get much better on any forum in my opinion.