I thought my value was about my ability to analyze and figure things out intellectually, but I was wrong, my value is in my ability to love.

That is a truly profound insight. And made me think about my own ability to love.
Buddhists say we should have a kind of neutral, equal kind of love for everyone, that is free of likes and dislikes. I don’t think I could ever achieve that kind of love. I don’t think I have this broad love and acceptance of humanity, which maybe you have I think.

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I am not aiming at being accepted by a single person here other than to be accepted by myself.

I still have an inner self that wants to please everyone on here .
This is where your courage and self-esteem are higher than mine. And that is admirable.

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marcel
hi. My guess is that your relationship with your Mum is causing you the most grief. Better to not work with her at all, if you can find another job outside the business, that would be much better. It won’t be easy, but at least you don’t have to deal with feeling of guilt and obligation. Have a long term goal of gaining your own confidence, your own separate identity. That is the challenge and it aint easy for any of us. I’m still struggling myself. There’ll be pain, but make it worthwhile pain, one you can learn from.

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hey Glenda

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Inky
For impersonating a moderator, I sentence you to one week on Tiny Buddha, in solitary confinement. No visitors allowed! 🙂

I don’t want the last word. This thread can go on forever, for all I care.
But if you look back, you’ll notice that a lot of posts have taken on the authoritarian tone of a moderator. Hence my assertion that we do in fact need a moderator on Tiny Buddha. A moderator would’ve closed it down long ago. I’ve seen forums, where at the first sign of conflict, the thread is closed. perhaps that is going too far. We don’t have to be that strict but still there needs to be boundaries so people avoid name-calling for example.
Call me Old Red, Lassie, Beethoven, Good Ol’ Guard Dog Jack, Snoopy, whatever….

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Hey Anita
you deserve all the praise you get . But I’m going to scale back my presence on here, one reason being I may be actually causing you more harm than good. Other members showing resentment of our natural alliance which I had no political motive whatsoever. We gelled naturally and they felt left out, simple as that.
Keep on doing what you’re doing though because as Saisha said you are making a difference, the best I’ve seen on any forum. I don’t have that level of dedication and energy which is totally awesome.
I was going to do a fun LLama Jack eulogy (to myself)even I haven’t quite left yet. 🙂
Take care. the privilege has been all mine.
And as for real life. I’m not pretending I like you, your courage and tenacity. that’s the real deal!