I don’t have a porpoise but I have a pet dog.

starfish
your post reveals a person with warmth, sensitivity and compassion, totally undeserving of your dysfunctional partners.
Best you try to survive without a partner? I think so for a while at least. I’m praying you find some support in all its forms, including emotional and financial. Oh and definitely your turn for a change of luck!

great question who! I thought I was the only one who started such meaning of life threads as these. 🙂
And I don’t think these questions are meant to be answered with a simple “yes” or “no”.
OK here goes. I’ll give it a shot.
The greater our self-awareness, the more likely we are to know what our inner purpose is. Eckhart Tolle talks about an exterior purpose and an interior purpose. The exterior purpose is like, what job should I do. who should I marry? The interior purpose is our spiritual path. Are we ethical, honest, authentic in our life? Are we remaining true to ourselves, despite unpopularity? Do we have lust and greed under some control? Similar to Buddhist and Christian values.
I think I’ve spent too much time focussed on my exterior purpose rather than my interior purpose. I’ve been obsessed “if I just found the right career, my niche”, when in reality no 1 career alone suits me. If I just focussed on being a better, more ethical person with more self-discipline and self-respect, I think the outer purpose would fall into place. Tolle says this is what happens anyway. I think he’s right. I believe so anyway.