Hi Anita, thanks again for the feed back. I will take some time to read though your posts. I have been focussing on my thread and navigating myself around the website trying to figure it all out 🙂

All your posts have been really helpful I actually thought you may be apart of the team that runs the site. You seem to have a lot of knowledge behind you. I look toward to reading more about you.

As I continue on my journey, I’m still reading my book and practicing mindfulness during every day activities, trying to immerse myself in the task at hand. It’s quite tricky, as my mind wanders to various other jobs but practice makes perfect. I’ve also been focusing more on my daughters, as in really listening to what they are explaining instead of saying “later” or “I’m busy” I also went out to a party and didn’t drink, nor feel like I wanted to, I enjoyed the night and felt good the next day.

These are only small steps I know, but by starting small I’m trying to change my negative habits.

Hey *dbielawski, i can completely sympathize with you as i have felt that way exactly many a time! I did notice when the depression fog clears you can think a little clearer about things and have a different perspective. At the moment i think you need to be kind to yourself and do what you need to do to start feeling better. If that means curling up in your pjs and watching movies for a day SO BE IT! im still learning this one. The world doesnt fall apart if we have a down day, its hard to shake the guilt though. I cant give you medical advice obviously because im not a dr, but in my own personal experience with medication, talk it through thoroughly with your dr or a councilor, google wasn’t very helpful for me as i just read all the bad side affects that scared me even more! I would never say to stop a medication when you are starting to feel better, not until all the underlying issues are resolved and theres a weaning process when you and your dr have decided its time to come of them.

I take a medication called Lexapro which has worked wonders for me, i had a lot of help from my mum when i started these meds as she has dealt with mental illness her whole life and knows alot about them. im not keen to change my medication because they do help alot. When the most recent dr i saw prescribed me Prozac i went and spoke to the chemist about my concerns… he was really really helpful! and im glad i did because apparently you cannot take prozac and lexapro at the same time because they are in the same group. the pharmacist advised to up my lexapro by 5mg ( this was something i had discussed with the dr that put me on the lexapr in the first place, as the backup for if i did get PND) so i knew i could do it.. NEVER SELF MEDICATE.

I can understand you would feel scared about changing meds because when you start them its not real nice and sometimes GPs dont explain this. Is there any chance you can go and see a Psychiatrist, they have the training to be able to prescibe meds after a thorough consult with you and how you are feeling? you can go and see a dr and ask for a refferal?

also do you have somebody that can support you through all of this, its much easier when you have help from somebody!! And please feel free to chat to me if you need to vent! im quite happy to walk the journey with you.

Hi * anita, so to me becoming fear-less is a few things. I think ALOT, probably too much and i evaluate every single thought i have, i need a reason WHY i feel the way i do, so i think about it some more, why am i so anxious, why am i thinking all of the time..does it mean im loosing my mind?? im sure nobody else does this.. the list goes on.. rumination i think its called.

I’ve been reading this book by Ruby Wax called “frazzled” and its explaining where these thoughts come from and my gosh i could spend my whole life digging until i got to the bottom but thats not what i need to do. Becoming Fear-less would mean that these thoughts could come into my mind but i could simple acknowledge them, accept them for what they are (just thoughts!) and carry on, becoming fear-less would mean i’m not afraid of how a thought could change my mood or make me feel a certain way because im in control of the whole process, this is what i need to learn , its tricky because its a learned habit and i need to unlearn it! I want to learn more about Cognitive behavioral therapy to do that.. all these things take commitment and i find that when i start feeling better after a low time i dont focus on working on all these things (another reason i joined Tiny Buddah MOTIVATION.

Also im a creature of comfort which i dont like because i miss out on a lot, i want to adventure and explore the world Try new things. Becoming fear-less would mean i do the things i want to do embracing the nerves but not letting my anxiety rule my mind with “what ifs” Dont get me wrong i do go places but its just the feelings i have when i’m at the destination, whether that be a new place on holidays or trying a new hobby, i want to fully experience it without worrying, does that make sense?

being fear-less would feeli like freedom, believing im capable, enjoying my life 100%, being present in the moment and accepting myself fully. I know life isnt always rosy, and im not aiming for that at all, my challenges teach me so much! i just hope i can glide through it all a little easier and with more confidence 🙂