Ben,

Thank you for that advice. It’s been a week since I have initiated any contact. He will be deploying soon and I am terrified he will go and we will not have at least made some sort of ammends by then. But it’s his choice now so it’s up to him. I just wish I could stop this sadness, the dreams…it’s like I can’t escape it. I know people have been/are going through worse than this but it’s such a raw hurt…it hurts constantly.

But thank you for the response and I will of course take your advice-there’s nothing more I can do anyway. I’m trying to believe and have Faith that this will all work out but it’s looking more and more futile as the days pass.