Hi J, I am in the same predicament. I am younger though and my friend feels when will I grow and be in a normal relationship with one man. after I left my 6 year relationship I was so closed off to anything and then I discovered a lot about myself. the lifestyle we chose sets us apart from society because it is looked at as slutty however I believe that I am free sexually, I have had multiple partners this year and I don’t feel guilty about them.

I am judged to a point where I close off emotionally to any of these men and I tell them before hand so basically its agreements that I come up with and whoever gets attached is cut off.

however I have taken a liking to one person and I am too afraid to mess up the sexual part of it because we both initiated the agreement and T’s & C’s.