Hi Tee,

So I contacted the therapist and she’s away on holiday until mid August so in the meantime I try to go out and enjoy the summer and all the things this city has to offer.

Hi Tee,

Yeah so much disappointment. Just one after the other. The previous guy weird behaviour after just prolonged the pain, and receiving this treatment straight after by one close friend was defo not what I needed.

I got a new computer so now it’s just down to adding zoom and then I should be good to go. Been so overwhelmed lately with injury, overtime and illness but I think I will contact her next week.

Hi Tee,

Yes, and it was hard because I had to deal with several months of anxiety ever since he said he liked me and wanted us to be dating and it was all for nothing. A complete waste of my resources, and now it feels like I’m losing a friend. People asking me about him at work doesn’t help. I feel like the boy who cried wolf now when it comes to this.

It’s happened with friends as well, they all say we are gonna stay in touch but they never do. Good thing though I have a lot of fun things to do here.

Hi Tee,

Well, more people were there including a relative of his and a girl. He was wearing a sombrero and the pictures of them had hearts and the caption my european family. I mean we agreed to take the romance off of the table since we were in different countries, but it made me realise that I don’t want to sit here hoping that maybe one day we will be together, meanwhile he is oing his own thing. I wrote him on his birthday and twenty past midnight he replied thank you smileyface. No I wish you were here or anything.

He talked about me coming to Portugal several times but didn’t make any plans, I feel played for a fool. One girl at work asked me how I was feeling and how’s life going, I think she saw the story as well. He hasn’t posted any story from his actual birthday which also makes me worried. I don’t want to be in this position anymore and gonna stop contacting him. I’ll focus on myself and going out exploring this amazing city, there’s heaps of events and things to do this summer. I’m thinking about going to Amsterdam for a couple of days (I’ve always wanted to go) and I can get two nights there for free. Y is having a birthday party on Friday and I’m invited, that will be fun and I heard that we will be having a staff party on a boat in two weeks, that’s sounds fun!

Hi Tee,

Me too. That’s what I’m afraid of. He doing too many things all at once, I’m going to try and be as supportive as I can.

Hi Tee,

Yeah it is. I miss going out with him exploring the city. He sounds very stressed at the moment like he doesn’t know what to do, maybe he will feel better after his dad’s surgery. He only have a couple of hours free at night after work and studying unfortunatly.

Hi Tee,

Yeah, especially when he really wants (and needs) stability.

I completely understand him. But your right he has a big family (three siblings) and they are all there for him and then he will call them regularly. He cares a lot for his family not sure if he helps out finacially but I know a lot from Brazil who send home money to help out. He wants better options and more safety than Brazil, he has had guns on him a couple of times and would always carry two cell phones (one to give in case he gets mucked and his own phone) he has pre settle status here same as me, so he can come back. He did mention something about childhood trauma and some things he didn’t quiet agreed on with his family but he very much cares for them. He seems very worried that he will loose someone close to him cause he’s never had that happen before and is scared of how he will react to it. His granddad also needs surgery so it’s two family members dealing with illness, and then all the work and studying. I hope I can get him to realise that he needs a more stable job. I know how much that meant to me, knowing that I had stability in just one part of my life, and I want the same for him.