Hi RedDress, thank you so much for the reply.

I’m sorry that you’ve had to experience this as well. To me, it felt sudden. We were, or so I thought, very good at communication throughout our relationship. We spoke about our problems, our future, our fears, if we were happy, if we weren’t, about what needed to change or get better… But she never brought any of this up prior. It hurts that she never gave us the chance to at least discuss everything that had been going on. While my anxiety was really bad, I was constantly asking how she was coping. If she needed a few nights alone at her place while I was struggling, if there was anything I could do. She always said she was fine. For a time there, she was. But something eventually changed. She stopped calling us a “we” and started using “you” and “I” a lot. She stopped saying she loved me. She stopped talking about our future. A week later it was over.

I’m left here, stuck on the idea that she let one tough month destroy something beautiful.

What you said about being strong, giving it your all and over coming obstacles… That hits close to home. I feel like we were both like that to a degree, but I was always that little bit more unconditionally loving, that little bit more resilient. In the past, when things got a little tough, she often had breakdowns and couldn’t seem to handle it. She was one of those people who is the strongest person on earth, and then suddenly breaks.