Thank you for answering Lindsay.

The reason why I’m sticking it out is because my apartment is pretty much tied to my school. So if I were to quit school I would almost certainly loose my apartment also. Even if I moved to my parents’ it would be very difficult to find a job anywhere. At first I was really afraid to tell my parents about it but in the end they were really supportive and their support has helped me alot.

I love the be active and I do run and go to the gym often. An injury has kept me from doing brasilian jiu-jitsu but I’m soon starting physio for that and hopefully it’ll help. Lifting has been my escape for past few weeks.

You’re also right. 5 more months isn’t that long of a time. But during those lectures where your mind wonders to places beyond comprehension even minutes feel like hours.

Thank you again for answering, you’ve given lot to think about.

Thank you for answering. I really do appreciate it.

There really isn’t much of anything that’s interesting anymore. It’s been like this for about 6 months now. When I go there I’m almost ashamed about how little I understand or how little it interests me. Then I just feel inferior to others.

But you’re right. It’s what I make of it. I know that life isn’t always exciting or interesting. But I also know that it should be better than this and I have made the first step to make it better. Now I just basically have to wait.