i think you should just got get a job…just to pay bills..and keep looking for a job you like..something will come up…and once your in a routine..things will fall into place..you have your health, you probably have lots of great traits…remember you can do what you want..your choice…however i think once you start having a routine..outside the house..you may look at things differently…you can still be a kid a heart..you just need to realize your not a kid…