I offered to be her friend. I’ve told her several times we can’t be bf-gf. She is a soul mate of sorts cos we have similar thoughts. I do like her and am affectionate to her. But I can’t be her spouse. Practically its not possible. And her husband is a wonderful man, at least from the outside he seems so. I just couldn’t be a part of this. But how can I end it? I’ve said things politely and directly. She feels betrayed. I can’t continue to talk to her in a normal manner and share much about me as I used to, cos I feel she will get more attached to me over the course of time. And as you said what if her husband finds out. I couldn’t and wouldn’t do that to that wonderful family. I want to be good. I want to be reformed. But if I tell her what we’ve done is wrong, she gets angry and says that “Yes, now you’ve suddenly become good and see me as a whore…after enjoying me, and having used me.” She says she doesn’t expect me to be her bf. And she just wants me to keep chatting and giving her moral support. I said ok I’ll do it as a friend and this friend term offends her. But at the same time, if I say anything about a girl or say even someone is beautiful, she starts to get jealous and angry. And how could I continue on to find my own girl in life, if I keep being nervous as to what she (the soul mater) thinks. I can’t be free and normal. I feel liked I’m tied down, despite her being thousands of miles away. Ever since I’ve expressed these feelings to her, she also starts to get suspicious of me if I forget to say her a good morning. She says I am trying to move on, ditching her, after using her.