My past experience with trusting people has made me question everything, investigate everything. I would catch my ex talking to other woman on social media behind my back, or he would cancel plans with me to go hang out with friends. I get we each needed separate time apart, but he always made me feel that i was second best. I have such self esteem issues because i have never felt good enough because i was never #1 in any of my exes eyes. Theres things that my current b/f does that trigger those feelings. I know that he would never do those things to me, but it brings back horrible memories, and i want to learn how to deal with those memories and not bring them into my relationship now. I dont want the memories of my past to ruin what i have now, or to take me back. I obviously will always be reminded of that stuff, but i want to learn to cope with it, and not let it affect me any longer. My boyfriend is starting to see that. I find myself checking over his shoulder when hes on facebook. I have been with him for a little over 7 months and have NEVER caught him doing ANYTHING, EVER. i know deep down i wont ever find anything but i feel its in my nature to investigate because part of me is so afraid im going to find something, and then part of me feels like i will never find anything. I over think everything and am trying my hardest to stop but it just doesnt seem good enough.