Just my view after similar feelings… Think of it like you are having a drink from a glass/cup.. you find somewhere along that drink that you do not like the way it tastes, so you empty your cup and try something different. You enjoy the different flavor but something is not right. What you failed to do was clean the cup before filling it again. Sounds like you are holding onto something, most likely fear of becoming depressed again.. but keep in mind that knowing the path and walking the path are 2 different things, and no one ever said it was a race!!!

People come and go from our lives all the time, some sooner and some later, the main thing to focus on is not trying to get them to stay longer, but enjoying the time you have with them. If your friendships don’t last it is just nature telling you it is time for a new friend. You cannot expect to find everything you are looking for in one close friend or relationship. It doesn’t mean you have to say goodbye to that person, it just means you need to open yourself to something more and new. Try not to spend all of your time with just a few select people, instead spend smaller amounts of time with many different people.

The most important thing to me, is to be happy with yourself. If you are in a place where you are ready for a commitment and believe this is the right person for you, then let go off your anxiety and need for him to feel the same. I found that holding on to the stress and uncertainty of a relationship is what causes it to break down. Have faith in yourself, and do not worry if he feels the same. If it doesn’t work you will have no regrets. Insecurities are often passed to the ones we love the most. So by seeking his constant approval and acceptance you passed him your insecurities. Be yourself, put your fears aside and let him go at his own pace. Does it matter how fast you get to the finish line?… or that you get there at all? it’s the journey that matters most.