I am so sorry that you’re experiencing this. While my situation is not exactly the same, I am going through something that has me feeling anxious and sleepless as well. I found Ester Finks blog post today very inspirational. But in my day to to day, I end up trying to realize my mother’s manta (despite how many times I rejected it as a teenager!). “Don’t force anything” — has helped me to remember that today, all I can do, is handle today. And once I’ve handled today — with all the looming bills, dread, fear, anxiety, relationship issues, and duties with family/house/work etc. — I can remember that I am capable, hard-working, and doing all that I can. When I have nothing else to offer to the world in a day, I go to bed.

I am trying not to force anything — because my problems aren’t going away, and things won’t change any faster — so the best I can do today is to handle what it is I can for this one day, and little by little chip away at the paperwork, chip away at the bills, research things to inform my next decisions, clean the dishes, and get myself motivated to do a little bit more tomorrow.